herotypical: [ neutral ; sad ; arms folded ] (✝ put it in the past)
buffy anne summers ([personal profile] herotypical) wrote in [community profile] lucetifans 2012-09-26 01:04 pm (UTC)

1. You've shared a lot with me. That took oodles of courage, but I'm starting to think there's still something you haven't said. It's cool. I'm patient. I can wait.

2. I wasn't just saying it for the sake of saying it, y'know. But you're welcome all the same.

3. I have to be more careful around you. I'm starting to over-relate; it'd be impossible not to. That's probably more dangerous for you than it is for me.

4. Admirably, you put on your bravest face every day -- but I've known you the longest and it tears me apart to imagine you might be lonely. Can't I set you up with a nice girl? It's not too soon. I promise.

5. You do so much more than just keep me trendy. You give me perspective. I just don't know how to explain it to you in a meaningful way.

6. Maybe I envy you and your publicity. But that's stupid, right? 'Cause underneath it all, you're just as screwed up as I am.

7. I love you. I-love-you-I-love-you-I-love-you. Maybe if I say it enough, you'll be the one guy who doesn't leave.

8. Sometimes, I get scared that other people won't approve of how deeply I trust you. Proper big-time shame and fright. But then I think about how comfortable I feel around you, and...

9. There are things about me you maybe deserve to know, now. Every day that I know your secret -- but you don't know mine -- I feel more and more cowardly. But I just can't say it aloud. I'm not strong like you are.

10. You'd be good for me -- in some hypothetical world where I wasn't a mess and you were a little older and we didn't have so many eyes on us. But I'll have to settle for being besties. Friends have more fun, anyways.

and bonus 11. I will kill you. How's that for a gift?


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