1) You are one of the most annoyin’, frustratin’ men I’ve ever known, an’ I’ve known some. An’ I don’t know where I’d be if you’d given up an’ walked away like anyone with two brain cells ta rub together would have. 1.a ...you know that there’s a pretty big part of me that wishes it was true, right? I hope also know why I can never say it.
2) I’m pretty sure you know anything I’d have to say here anyway. I try ta live up to what you see in me. I’m sorry for all the times I can’t.
3) I remember when I thought of you as a mother - the one responsible influence in my life. I remember pulling up a gun and filling your chest with holes. And you weren’t either of them. And I can never tell you. So I hope you’ll be patient with me.
4) Your birthday present carried me through more than a few miles.
5) You are way too good for me. But ya put up with me anyway. I’m glad we’re friends, though sometimes it scares me. I don’t want to hurt you.
6) You're a good kid. I'm right proud of ya, though I've got no call ta be. But I think you know that. What you might not know is that it's a little scary how comfortable I feel with you.
7) I count you in the top fifteen of the Universe’s Demonstrations of Unfairness. It’s a long list. You did in one second what no one’s been able ta do in years. I really should hate you more.
8) The ‘what ifs’ ever get to you? They get ta me. Gawd, what if I could trust you enough ta let you in? Would we be good? Because sometimes I think we could be real good. Or would ya hurt me all over again? I’m so tired of bein’ hurt. Why can’t I get you out of my skin? I’m supposed ta be smarter than this.
9) The more I think about it, the more pissed I get. So I try not ta think about it. Because you hurt me bad, but in the end? It just ain’t worth my time.
10) I hate that I love you. I still don't even know if I'm sorry.
11) You just don’t know. You just... can’t know. An’ I don’t even have the words ta say, even here. It’s more than words, it’s more than blood-- it’s the difference between light and dark. I miss you. Twerp.
12) I meant it, ya know. You should have some confidence in that part of yourself. Ain’t nothin’ holdin’ you back from findin’ new happiness but you.
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1.a ...you know that there’s a pretty big part of me that wishes it was true, right? I hope also know why I can never say it.
2) I’m pretty sure you know anything I’d have to say here anyway. I try ta live up to what you see in me. I’m sorry for all the times I can’t.
3) I remember when I thought of you as a mother - the one responsible influence in my life. I remember pulling up a gun and filling your chest with holes. And you weren’t either of them. And I can never tell you. So I hope you’ll be patient with me.
4) Your birthday present carried me through more than a few miles.
5) You are way too good for me. But ya put up with me anyway. I’m glad we’re friends, though sometimes it scares me. I don’t want to hurt you.
6) You're a good kid. I'm right proud of ya, though I've got no call ta be. But I think you know that. What you might not know is that it's a little scary how comfortable I feel with you.
7) I count you in the top fifteen of the Universe’s Demonstrations of Unfairness. It’s a long list. You did in one second what no one’s been able ta do in years. I really should hate you more.
8) The ‘what ifs’ ever get to you? They get ta me. Gawd, what if I could trust you enough ta let you in? Would we be good? Because sometimes I think we could be real good. Or would ya hurt me all over again? I’m so tired of bein’ hurt. Why can’t I get you out of my skin? I’m supposed ta be smarter than this.
9) The more I think about it, the more pissed I get. So I try not ta think about it. Because you hurt me bad, but in the end? It just ain’t worth my time.
10) I hate that I love you. I still don't even know if I'm sorry.
11) You just don’t know. You just... can’t know. An’ I don’t even have the words ta say, even here. It’s more than words, it’s more than blood-- it’s the difference between light and dark. I miss you. Twerp.
12) I meant it, ya know. You should have some confidence in that part of yourself. Ain’t nothin’ holdin’ you back from findin’ new happiness but you.