Secret secret, I've got a secret

[gleamed]

Hang on to your butts! It's time for...

THE IC SECRETS MEME EPISODE IV: A NEW HOPE

We got 85 secrets. What a great turnout! Thank you so much to everyone who participated. Now the fun begins! After you've perused our great gallery of secrets, ICly respond with your characters' reactions! Feel free to have them respond anonymously if they'd be too shy about responding "logged in". Respond to others! Shenanigans ensue! Without further ado...


1.

[ Once I peed in a coconut. ]


2.

[ Attention Luceti: long cat is long ]


3.

[ It doesn't matter if you don't return my feelings. As selfish as it may be, all I need is you by my side. ]


4.

[ You were right. I was naive about the world. But what am I supposed to do now? ]


5.

[ For a long time, I was angry with myself for letting it happen. For having failed to fight off the Shift. But now I'm not sure I know what to feel anymore. Even if we hadn't meant for it to happen, I can't help but remember the good in it. And I find myself thinking about it most days, the more I try not to. Not only the physical aspect of it, but how it felt to have someone with me by my side. What it was like to feel human again. ]


6.

[ Billy Kaplan and Teddy Altman are very noisy. This is Nicholas Cage. ]


7.

[ No one's ever needed me before / It makes me want to be a decent person ]


8.

[ True seeing is within. ]


9.

[ They gave me hope for the future. They stole it all away again. They've taken everything from me. I have nothing else to lose. ]


10.

[ I'm homesick everyday, but even then, I don't want to go back. Is there something wrong with me? ]


11.

[ I killed your sister. Sorry about that. She got better. ]


12.

[ Grow to be even stronger. You have so much love around you. ]


13.

[ Sophie. Jonah. Noah. How long until they become this? ]


14.

[ I want to join the Malnosso. It would be for your own good. ]


15.

[ I know what I want us to be. So why can't I just go for it? ]


16.

[ I wish the solution didn't mean separating. ]


17.

[ I'm so used to living on my own / So please be patient / It will take time for me to adjust to this. ]


18.

[ Let's fly! :) ]


19.

[ You saved me. Thank you. I wasn't sure you knew. ]


20.

[ This is home and family to me. ]


21.

[ Death is his gift and he's bled into me. It's only a matter of time before he gets you, too. No one is safe... ]


22.

[ You're a good person. Let's be friends... ]


23.

[ Will you be my starfish buddy? ]


24.

[ don't waste your time on him / he's nothing but trouble ]


25.

[ I wish we could stay here forever. ]


26.

[ I realized once that there is a life that I ascribe actual value to. And when I think about this, sometimes, I realize that there may be a number of such lives. I'd rather you not have died. Any of you. ]


27.

[ It's hard for me to not think about living in your shadow when you're right there next to me. But now you're one of my best friends. It's weird. But I'm glad. ]


28.

[ Recently I felt lonely for the first time. I missed someone. No, more than one. And I wonder if you knew my true self, if you knew how many lives I have taken, If you knew how cruel I could be. Would you all leave me behind and bring that loneliness back? ]


29.

[ luceti changes all of us / i just wish it hadn't made me worse. ]


30.

[ This is how it feels to listen to you. Isn't it beautiful? ]


31.

[ I tapped that. ]


32.

[ "I love you, too." I already know how you feel, but I still want to hear those words. ]


33.

[ I'm glad we got to be family ]


34.

[ I hate that you have a life here, a life that I can't touch. It's petty and stupid but there it is. ]


35.

[ I don't hate it half as much as I say I do. ]


36.

[ i've bloody well been sleeping alone for a whole year (which makes this my loneliest year in a great long time) ]


37.

[ Sometimes I wonder if things would be easier if you were still here. But you would just punch me in the shoulder and call me a sissy. ]


38.

[ I really think you can do it! ]


39.

[ I died. I feel empty. ]


40.

[ I want them to be wrong about you but they're probably right ]


41.

[ Life is a curse. And this you shall know all too well in time, every waking moment of your existence. I promise you that. ]


42.

[ I care for you both very deeply. But I doubt sometimes, that either feeling could be love. ]


43.

[ I see the differences. I understand them more and more as time goes on. But I still believe that we can be happy here. ]


44.

I know I shouldn't, but I wish my friends were here.


45.

[ I'll come clean if you will. ]


46.

[ Being around you makes me nervous. ]


47.

[ Everything was much easier when I still hated you. ]


48.

[ to everyone i love: there are still so many things i can't-shan't-won't tell you. it's nothing personal. but there are some tragedies you kinda have to be there for. Besides, you'd hate me if you knew the things i'd done; i've allowed be done to me; i've said; i haven't said; i've thought; i've wished; i've wanted. not just back home. here, too. ]


49.

[ Believe in the strength you already have inside of you. We can see it. You should too! ]


50.

[ Oswald is the best cartoon character ever. I'm so glad I could meet him in person. Everyone should ask him for an autograph! ]


51.

[ Sometimes, I'm afraid. that I could never completely forgive you. ]


52.

[ do you still think about that night? I do. ]


53.

[ I'm starting to forget things. About home. It's really scary. ]


54.

[ Thanks. ]


55.

[ You're my family / I ain't had one of those in a long time. Thanks. ]


56.

[ I want to toast you and all we've been through but we'd get drunk. ]


57.

[ One day you are gonna wake up and realize that you are the hero and I am the monster ]


58.

[ Sometimes I wonder how it would be to have a girlfriend. Even though I know such things are not meant for me. ]


59.

[ Luceti needs more cookies, too! maybe Oreos. Oreos are good. they remind me of home! ]


60.

[ Luceti totally needs more candy!!! ]


61.

[ I don't want to go home. ]


62.

[ I hate how it is you make me feel. But I ache for it, all the same. I think I loved you, once. ]


63.

[ If you end up dying after all, I'll laugh. You really do deserve it. ]


64.

[ I hate being alone. I don't want to be alone. But I think people would be better without me. ]


65.

[ you're still a stinkbrain but you're also my best friend ]


66.

[ People here are nice. Nicer than I've deserved. But is it worth being actual friends? I mean, it can't last in a place like this. ]


67.

[ I want to help everyone get home but I think I'm way over my head ]


68.

[ I feel like you are hiding something from me / But I do not possess the courage to confront you / I sincerely hope that my intuition is wrong or I fear I will be consumed with nothing but regret ]


69.

[ I like your hair better now. ]


70.

[ I don't want to go home. But if the opportunity to go back there arose, I couldn't forgive myself for staying here. I'm sorry. ]


71.

[ Without all of you, I don't know how I'd survive this nightmare. You've taught me so much and shown me your hearts in ways I never thought possible. You are my friends and my family. I love each and every one of you. Thank you. ]


72.

[ I think this is more like it. ]


73.

[ I fear that someday, I won't come back. ]


74.

[ I really want to see you happy. ]


75.

[ It's getting a little crowded for me here / I need a little space to breathe ]


76.

[ There are things that I wish I had said while you were still here. Have I lost my only chance? ]


77.

[ I am a little afraid of what is waiting for me at home...but i still would not have wanted it to be anyone else. ]


78.

[ Stick around! You've got a fan. ]


79.

[ I've traversed countless stars and visited worlds beyond number. And there's no place I'd rather be than here. With you. I love you. ]


80.

[ You are the real gift. ]


81.

[ I owe you my life (and not just because of the stew) ]


82.

[ Monsters like you don't get happily every afters / No power on this world will help you when you hurt her / Just a tip. From one monster to another. ]


83.

[ I hope you find your bliss ]


84.

[ I may have come close to feeling love once. Then I realised that it could never be. I am not sure how to feel about this. ]


85.

[ This place can hurt you in so many ways. You belong with your real family. But I'm afraid, that if the chance came, I won't be able to let you go. I'd miss your smile and your laugh. You. Until I can't remember it anymore. ]

Comments

[herotypical]

...Those years never happened. Not really.

[ notice how it's not really a refutation. ]

[originaljackass]

Yeah but they about went how they would've. If they did happen.

[herotypical]

Puh-lease! Reality would never have happened like that.

[ although horner has found his fatherly instincts, buffy's still stock-still-scared of what being a parent might entail. in that matter, it isn't his reluctance she finds at fault, but her own. she believes her own damn selfishness is likely to hold her back. ]

[originaljackass]

Well, sure, you probably would've got old and slightly less hot over the years.

[In which case, yeah, he'd have probably needed to move on.]

[herotypical]

And you just went and sold decency down the river.

[originaljackass]

Hey, I didn't see you being all that loyal when I got all rotund and ugly!

[herotypical]

H-hey! That so wasn't why I was leaving. It's complicated. A-and...

[ and the whole thing left her feeling as though real-her likely also couldn't sustain a decent marriage. after all, her parents couldn't. ] It's not like it was easy to even contemplate breaking up a...

Oh my God. I can't even believe I'm defending something that wasn't even real.

[originaljackass]

[The whole hint at her being on the edge of breaking it off? Goes over his head entirely.]

I'm up for making it real, if you want.

[herotypical]

Hel-lo. Dripping in monogamy, over here. But that green-haired chick certainly sounded interested in...well -- I don't dare repeat the things she told me she wanted to do to you. Filth, all of it.

[originaljackass]

I just have that kinda effect on women. What can I say? It's a curse.

[herotypical]

And yet your little list is at least two-thirds Shift induced. Jack? My stats are more impressive than that.

[originaljackass]

Wait, two thirds!? I banged those babes in non-experiment conditions!

[herotypical]

That's not what Greenylocks implied. And I know we weren't of sound mind ourselves.

[originaljackass]

Dammit. I'll just have to do her again, set the record straight.

[herotypical]

She seems willing enough. Well, willing to tie you to a chair at least. I hear that can occasionally be a start.

[originaljackass]

Wouldn't be the kinkiest thing I've done. One time I did it while there was a sword impaled in my chest. [And it was with his half-sister! But uh, that part ain't getting mentioned.]

[herotypical]

[ there's a penetration joke in there somewhere, but she'll be damned if she's the one to make it. [

Oh, that is so unbelievably gross. Ew. Why would you -- no. I don't wanna know.

[originaljackass]

Hey, when you're facing down with the thought of being dead, you gotta make do with what you can.

[herotypical]

I can't even count the amount of times I've faced down death. And not once have I ever thought 'you know what -- an orgasm sure would make this better.'

W-well, okay. Maybe once.

[originaljackass]

You'd be surprised how many situations can be improved by an orgasm.

[herotypical]

...And -- yet -- I will remain forever unsurprised at just how many can be ruined by the same.

[originaljackass]

See? That's what happens when you sleep with dudes that aren't me.

[herotypical]

Oh, don't even make me start comparing. You won't like the results.

[originaljackass]

That wouldn't be fair. Married sex isn't as awesome as what we could've had.

[herotypical]

And yet you just sa-- [ DEEP BREATH. ] Doesn't matter. It's not like either of us are gonna get a second chance at each other. Probably for the best.