10 things for 10 people meme!

[lorentzian]

Just a quick little ditty of a meme to break up all the other plotty stuff going on. :) (Stolen and slightly modified from Vatheon!)

10 Things for 10 People

→ Post with your character ICly saying ten different things to ten different people.

→ Or eight things to eight people, or five things to five people. There's no hard or fast limit.

→ You can say things your character wants to say, things your character refuses to say, thoughts or beliefs about other people, secrets...

→ But you can't say who those people are! No naming names.

→ (Example: "I've always liked you, but I can't tell you that.")

→ React to everyone ICly. Make guesses or reassure or whatever. And have fun!

Comments

[simplestgift]

With Horatio...I'm not sure it counts, because everyone else knew. I thought it didn't make a difference if he knew. After him, the next person I told was Dawn.

[herotypical]

Dawnie...

[ she chews at the side of her thumbnail. ] There are things I wish I could go back and tell her myself. She always found out in the worse ways...

[simplestgift]

I...didn't want her to learn through some experiment or another. And she deserved to know the disaster she was entering into.

[herotypical]

See? More strength. Right there. I spy it.

[simplestgift]

Not strength at all. Fear alone.

[herotypical]

Last I checked? The two weren't mutually exclusive.

[simplestgift]

I did not say they were.

[herotypical]

No. But you did it in spite of fear -- I won't believe that it was 'cause of it. Hence the strength.

[simplestgift]

No. I did it because I was afraid of what would happen if I did not.

[herotypical]

Me? I'm so scared I haven't even thought that far ahead. I figure...

I figure I'm loved as I am. I'd hate for that to change.

[ and saying something aloud? changed you. ]

[simplestgift]

...My thought was to get it over with now, before I made things worse.

[herotypical]

Telling will make things worse. Well. Most things.

[simplestgift]

Then you shouldn't feel obliged to tell. You don't owe anything to me, nor to anyone else. It isn't our business.

[herotypical]

...Have you told Liz?

[ that is, should she consider telling jack before she even imagined accepting his proposal? ]

[simplestgift]

It...

[He hesitates.]

Yes. I didn't want her blaming herself for...anything.

[herotypical]

Before or after you popped the question?

[simplestgift]

Before. No point in asking her to marry me if...

[Can you tell this is really uncomfortable?]

[herotypical]

I couldn't do it. I could never...

[ she shakes her head. ] I'd much sooner just accept the proposal I was given before I even considered trying to explain to Jack that anyone -- anyone -- could ever have even attempted to...

[markofthebrave]

1 ) I know I promised I’d try. But I’m not sure... I’m not sure I can. I still don’t see a way.
1.a Please don’t leave me here alone.

2) I’m not her. I’ll never be her. I wish I never even knew about her. I wish I didn’t know about any of this. And sometimes - sometimes I wish you’d throw it all away and take a chance on me. So I could see if we could be.

3) I feel safer when you’re here. It seems silly, right? But it’s true.

4) I won’t lie. There were times that I looked at you and wondered. I’m so glad we decided not to explore that. It would have made everything so much worse.

5) I never realized how hard it must be for you before - never really even thought about it. You’ve always handled the situation with such openness... I really admire that about you.

6) I wish you hadn’t come back.

7) And I wish you would. Just as we remember you.

8) One day, I might be able to look at you without thinking of who you’re not and why that is. I hope it happens soon. But I don’t think it’ll ever stop hurting.

9) I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry. I wish I could have changed it. I wish I could have known. I’ll never forgive myself for finding out so late. You shouldn’t have had to be alone.

10) You know, I know it’ll never be the same as if I was one of them. And we don’t see everything eye-to-eye. But I’m okay with that. And even if I’m wrong and somehow this is wrong? I... I really don’t care. I really don’t. I trust you.

11) I see how much you’re still hurting, and it kills me not to be able to do anything to help.

12) “You shouldn’t wait around for me. You should go find someone and be happy, because I can’t.” That’s what I should say. I’m just trying to wait until I can mean it.

13) I’m really glad that I’ve gotten to know you. I’m so glad that you’re finding a way to pursue your own happiness.

14) I miss you. I miss you so much. I hope you’re happy where you are. I hope that something of what we had here is still with you, that your heart is somehow a little more opened to being loved.

15) I really miss holding your hand and knowing you were there.

16) You helped me come to understand and value something that I always looked at before as... proof of my failure. Instead, I feel proud of it. I don't feel proud of a lot, these days. So... thank you for giving me that.

17) Thank you. For a little while, you gave me what I can't take for myself. And I know you didn't have to do that. I had a really nice time. And I don't think I can laugh at you being a prince anymore.

[simplestgift]

But you and Jack, you've already...

[herotypical]

It's not about the sex, Archie. [ this is buffy: bold as brass one moment and skirting around sentences the next. ]

It's about the power. It's about...it's about a lot of things. But it's not actually about that.

[simplestgift]

[It's not exactly about the sex for him, either. More about the guilt he associates with it, really. But that's definitely too much information.]

Then I don't believe you need to tell him. Let it lie. It'd only make him angry about something he could never avenge.

[herotypical]

[ everything knots back to power for poor buffy summers. there were distinct, clear-in-her-mind reasons why she refuses to sleep with even jack whilst there's any sort of power-cancelling doing on. it doesn't matter how much she trusts him; she needs to trust that she's herself, first. ]

It helped you, though, right? Telling?

[simplestgift]

[He hesitates.]

It...strengthened my friendship with the ones I told.

[herotypical]

[ she tries to fill in the blanks. carefully. cautiously. ]

But it didn't make any more sense than it did before.