10 things for 10 people meme!

[lorentzian]

Just a quick little ditty of a meme to break up all the other plotty stuff going on. :) (Stolen and slightly modified from Vatheon!)

10 Things for 10 People

→ Post with your character ICly saying ten different things to ten different people.

→ Or eight things to eight people, or five things to five people. There's no hard or fast limit.

→ You can say things your character wants to say, things your character refuses to say, thoughts or beliefs about other people, secrets...

→ But you can't say who those people are! No naming names.

→ (Example: "I've always liked you, but I can't tell you that.")

→ React to everyone ICly. Make guesses or reassure or whatever. And have fun!

Comments

[simplestgift]

Not strength at all. Fear alone.

[herotypical]

Last I checked? The two weren't mutually exclusive.

[simplestgift]

I did not say they were.

[herotypical]

No. But you did it in spite of fear -- I won't believe that it was 'cause of it. Hence the strength.

[simplestgift]

No. I did it because I was afraid of what would happen if I did not.

[herotypical]

Me? I'm so scared I haven't even thought that far ahead. I figure...

I figure I'm loved as I am. I'd hate for that to change.

[ and saying something aloud? changed you. ]

[simplestgift]

...My thought was to get it over with now, before I made things worse.

[herotypical]

Telling will make things worse. Well. Most things.

[simplestgift]

Then you shouldn't feel obliged to tell. You don't owe anything to me, nor to anyone else. It isn't our business.

[herotypical]

...Have you told Liz?

[ that is, should she consider telling jack before she even imagined accepting his proposal? ]

[simplestgift]

It...

[He hesitates.]

Yes. I didn't want her blaming herself for...anything.

[herotypical]

Before or after you popped the question?

[simplestgift]

Before. No point in asking her to marry me if...

[Can you tell this is really uncomfortable?]

[herotypical]

I couldn't do it. I could never...

[ she shakes her head. ] I'd much sooner just accept the proposal I was given before I even considered trying to explain to Jack that anyone -- anyone -- could ever have even attempted to...

[simplestgift]

But you and Jack, you've already...

[herotypical]

It's not about the sex, Archie. [ this is buffy: bold as brass one moment and skirting around sentences the next. ]

It's about the power. It's about...it's about a lot of things. But it's not actually about that.

[simplestgift]

[It's not exactly about the sex for him, either. More about the guilt he associates with it, really. But that's definitely too much information.]

Then I don't believe you need to tell him. Let it lie. It'd only make him angry about something he could never avenge.

[herotypical]

[ everything knots back to power for poor buffy summers. there were distinct, clear-in-her-mind reasons why she refuses to sleep with even jack whilst there's any sort of power-cancelling doing on. it doesn't matter how much she trusts him; she needs to trust that she's herself, first. ]

It helped you, though, right? Telling?

[simplestgift]

[He hesitates.]

It...strengthened my friendship with the ones I told.

[herotypical]

[ she tries to fill in the blanks. carefully. cautiously. ]

But it didn't make any more sense than it did before.

[simplestgift]

[This hesitation is a lot longer. Because that's so much of it, even a decade later. Why it was so important. Why it couldn't wait till they were ashore and there were willing women. And if it wasn't important, what did that say about the man? What did that say about mankind? What did it say about Midshipman Kennedy, lying in ruins because of nothing important? How unimportant must he be?]

Dunno if it ever makes sense. Perhaps I'll tell you if I find out. But...the more times I said it, the more it became...part of the past, I suppose. Like a story I was telling, and you can't tell a story that hasn't already happened.

[herotypical]

[ and perhaps that's buffy's problem. thanks to spike not staying dead and thanks to him waltzing in and out of the village whenever the dimensional elevator saw fit to send him, the story could never be part of the past.

it's always still happening. ]

If you get to write the chapters, you also get to choose which one comes last. You choose what ends it. That's...that's compelling stuff.

[simplestgift]

I think that might be it. I...don't know precisely when those years--not only Simpson, but Ferrol as well--when they weren't any longer the most important of my life. Sometimes they still are. I can't sleep in the dark. But...looking back, I don't believe it really began to happen till I told Horatio. And I knew there was one person in all the world I could trust with anything. [He has gone very train-of-thought, saying whatever comes to mind.] It made for one place in all the world that was...safe.